Random Thoughts

Hi friends,

Ever since I tried deep diving into a habit of mindfulness, I noticed that my mind is constantly thinking about random things. It usually starts with a simple question, then it leads to another question, and then another, then another and so on. Before I knew it, it snowballed into a massive jumble of thoughts that I forgot where it started and don't know where it's going. Not really an ideal version of mindfulness I had in my mind but I think I'm improving. At least in terms of noticing what's going on in my head.

However, I noticed that whenever I try to recall back all the thoughts that I had a mere second ago, I find it really difficult to pull it out from the back of my head. I knew I had a brilliant idea/thought just now but it just slips through my mind in an instant! This has got me thinking, what is this whole situation of not recalling a thought I had seconds ago called? If no one has ever put a name on this, I probably want to name it as "the quantum properties of the mind". Tacky name, I know. It's a work in progress. But what I want to highlight here is that I noticed that my mind do not behave as I expect it to whenever I start to "observe" what it's doing. As soon as I uplift my focus from it however, my mind starts to go wild and I will notice what it is doing without fully absorbing what's happening because it is happening too fast.

So in the effort of further understanding what's going on in my mind, I'll write snippets of what I remember in my phone's notes. And maybe later, whenever I look back at it, it'll trigger any memories of that thought. This post was inspired by one of the points in the notes which I wrote:

Inspiration and thoughts act like the quantum world. They don't come when you expect them.

This is just some interesting observation I'm having. There's probably a whole field of psychology study in regards to this that I don't know about. I'm just putting it here so that I would remember that this is one of the experience I had after taking an internal look at myself.

I wonder if you ever had this kind of experience? Cheers guys.